All I want right now is to be able to move out of this crazy house and into a place of my own. I can't wait for taxes and HOPEFULLY I won't get lay'd off at Sprint. I really hope I don't get lay'd off because I love my job, my bosses, but not so much some of the people I work with. Its not that I dont like them, I just dont like how everyone talks about everyone else behind their backs. I guess no matter where you go there will be those type of people. I know I mess up at times, well I dont think it is messing up. If I don't get enough information about what he wants how am I suppose to get it exactly how he wants it? I am not a mind reader. I ask a lot of questions and sometimes, to me, it seems like maybe I ask too many questions? I just want to make sure I am doing my job correctly. Is that too much to ask? I love my job, its good and not so good perks.
I am working on changing my life, but I feel like I am at a stand still not knowing what the hell I want. How can I change something if I don't want it to change? I know I want a place of my own, I want to keep my boy in the preschool that he is in, I want a better car, better yet I just want to be happy with at least two out of three wants. What will make me happy at this point? A place of my own, staying at a job I love, eating healthy, and forgetting him. My mind wants to forget him, but my heart doesnt. Anyways, this blog is not going to be about him dayumit. Like I said, I am working on what I need to do to make my life better and it seems like its taking too long. Why can't I ever finish a blog? Im tired and if this doesnt make sense then oh well. I just looked at the time and CHIT I gotta wake up early so im out. Maybe I will finish tomorrow?
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